“i don’t think i’ve said this enough,”
the soft-spoken, hoarse voice awakened you when you almost dozed off. you blinked your eyes a few time to make sure you’re fully awake before looking down at the owner of the voice. you didn’t realize that your hand has been stroking his long, fluffy hair the whole time.
you hummed in response, implicitly telling him to go on.
there was a silence, not too short, but long enough to make you impatient and curious about what he’s gonna say. inbetween the silence, he shifted his head on your lap, eyes still focused on the television. he leaned in to your hand that was atop his head, as if he was trying to tell you not to stop stroking his hair. and with that, you continued. you like doing it anyway.
“i don’t think i’ve said this enough but you mean so much to me.”
your breath hitched. unconsciously, you stopped brushing your hand through his hair as you stared at the empty space near the tv. you were taken aback by his sudden confession and you weren’t actually prepared for this. your mother taught you almost everything you need to know and do in life, but never the way to respond a guy who had just confessed that you mean so much to him. the thought had never even crossed your mind that you actually mean something to someone. so you stayed silent. even after years of being together, he still succeeds in making you speechless.
when he’s sure that he wouldn’t get a respond anytime soon, he turned his head to look up at you, letting out a small ‘hey’ to push you away from your deep thoughts. you shook your head and looked down, returning his gaze. you noticed how your hand moved by itself from his head to his cheek due to the movement he made earlier. you let it stay there.
“i think i’ve never said that to you,” he chuckled as the realization hit him.
you couldn’t help but let your fingers caress his cheek gently, making him smile at your soft touch. he closed his eyes as you continued to caress his cheek.
“you mean the world to me, you know that right?”
he wanted to make sure that you know how he really feels towards you. even though it’s been years, he knew that you doubted him at one point. he knew that you questioned yourself if he really loved you at some point. he knew that his lack of affirmation has made you wondered if you were really worth fighting for. it made you sometimes distant yourself to know if he really cared enough for you. it’s not that he’s not good with words. but when he’s with you, he feels like everything that comes out of his mouth will make no sense. no words could perfectly describe how he feels when he’s with you. but one thing he is certain of, he feels like the happiest man in the world.
“well, now i do.” you half-jokingly responded with a small chuckle followed after.
he opened his eyes for a brief moment to look at your sleepy face before closing them again. your hand hasn’t stopped caressing his cheek the whole time. you took this chance to stare at his beautiful, heavenly sculpted face when he closed his eyes so you wouldn’t have to worry about feeling nervous when he looks at you. all this time, you’ve been asking yourself if you were really worth staying by his side.
and tonight, you convinced yourself that you are. and you always will be.
“you too,” you spoke as your eyes fluttered shut.
“ you mean the world to me.”
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